I feel that one day an authentic new truth will emerge from all this, a truth warm and intimate, capable of summarizing me clearly, like a name, and striking an entirely new, unique note in me, and it will be the meaning of my life...

Blecher’s question “Who am I” leads to a world eroticized by inner chafing. Adventures in Immediate Irreality is a study in observation. And it takes the reader where one generally arrives when one looks at things impartially – to a place of calm and composed resignation.

Ce pot face, în viaţa cotidiană? Ce lucru uimitor, extraordinar, poate ea conţine pentru mine? în fiecare zi mă voi spăla pe dinţi, voi mânca la prânz şi voi lua cafeaua cu lapte seara, indiferent dacă undeva se va fi întâmplat în timpul zilei o catastrofă de cale ferată, ori cineva în familie va fi murit. Tot mă voi spăla pe dinţi, tot voi sta la masă... tot eu voi fi. Înţelegi? Înţelegi ce animal îngrozitor de monoton voi deveni?

Toate zilele astea fără tine nu le-am trăit deloc.

Ce qui m’a le plus étonné (absurdement, bien sûr) à Paris, c’est de n’avoir aperçu aucun carrosse avec un malade à l’intérieur. J’ai découvert un jour au coin d’une rue un invalide dans un chariot mécanique et j’ai voulu lui foncer dedans, l’embrasser et le serrer dans mes bras comme si ç’avait été un frère. Mais tu ne sais que trop bien que, dans la vie, précisément les gestes les plus sensés sont interdits.

Chin up!" I said to myself but immediately took it back: only the timid need to keep their chins up to do something; the strong -- normal people -- know neither courage nor cowardice. They simply open doors.

I rummaged through the drawers in search of a strong poison. I thought of nothing as I looked; I had to get it over with as quickly as possible. It was as if it were an everyday task I needed to do.All I could find were things of no use to me: buttons, string, thread of various colors, notebooks—all strongly redolent of naphthalene and none capable of causing a man’s death. Buttons, thread, and string—that is what the world contained at this most tragic of moments.